Valentines Day Kisses (Early Release)
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BOOKCLUB! QUESTION
yall mind if we read too chapters tomorrow afternoon? had a real late start today and wanted to stream still. unless you guys want it for tonight more, im cool with that!
2020-02-12 01:56:21 +0000 UTC View Post
Looking for my book ๐ฌ
Last time I had it was when visiting slight...... I hope I didnโt leave it because randy packed his away frivHMM
2020-02-02 23:38:14 +0000 UTC View PostCanโt Tingle? STICKY BALLS to the RESCUE! (Trust me) ๐๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธโค๏ธ (Early Release)
Fast aggressive tapping, gum chewing, soft spoken ASMR (Early Release)
Journal #8
Phew, boy. Came to a lot of realizations the past week. Trying very hard to give it my all and fight for my worth and happiness.
The comparisons (that others and myself make) are leading my brain to want to self-destruct. Iโm trying to find unique ability or character in me and Iโm just not liking what I see.
In comparison to the people in my life Iโm nothing special and I donโt understand why I even have a boyfriend or friends? Realizing Iโm not at...
2020-01-26 06:13:11 +0000 UTC View PostASMR Goddess Gently Guides You to Sleep ๐๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธ (Early Release)
Early Bookclub???
Do you guys mind if I get on within the next 10-20 minutes? We have to drop binky off for a vet visit for his heart murmur at 4:30 and have to leave in about an hour and 20. Figured we could get a little session in :)
2020-01-14 21:41:24 +0000 UTC View PostJournal #7
I DID IT!!!
To be completely honest - I woke up today feeling the same as I have the past couple weeks. Didnโt get very good sleep, didnโt feel very loved or special and just had the darkness hanging over me like the rain cloud following a character in a cartoon. I guess itโs just one of those times. Hormones are still messed up, depression episode is going strong, choked down a panic attack after a talk with Tyler last night that made me realize we may not be ...
2020-01-14 04:39:27 +0000 UTC View PostJournal #6
You are my people. Thank you for carrying me through this week.
I feel humbled looking through past videos and comments and trying to remind myself I am worth more than how depression may make me feel.
Thank you for sticking with me.
Going to read a few chapters of The Night Circus then get on stream โค๏ธ
What video would you like me to film tonight? I was going to do hand kisses ๐โค๏ธ
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I lied. I have a ...
2020-01-12 21:35:14 +0000 UTC View PostJournal #5
Today, I'm going to smile through the darkness.
I was reminded of the darkness inside my heart last night. It's been incredibly difficult to not go into a self-loathing spiral, but I'm constantly reminding myself that I want to be better... and incessantly punishing myself doesn't make me better. It only punishes myself and the people around me for my past mistakes or flaws that I need to work on rather than actually doing anything productive.
So, i hate ...
2020-01-11 00:22:19 +0000 UTC View PostJournal #4
I couldโve written last night, but was in a more negative headspace and didnโt want these to all be so depressing. I want to be true to myself and show a bit more inside my brain with you all (which is quite dark and morbid), but at the same time I donโt want you guys to think Iโm constantly complaining and miserable. My brain is very much a rollercoaster. Iโm waiting to get in to see better, more specialized doctors as well as getting an MRI to make sure everyth...
2020-01-08 22:01:05 +0000 UTC View PostJournal Entry #3
I DID IT! I got through another day. It wasnโt the best and it wasnโt the worst. I made it.
My anxiety is severe with all the things I have to catch up on with around the house right now, so Iโll keep it short and simple today to avoid weird rambles.
Highlights of my day:
Eating a waffle for the first time in years!
Playing halo with tyler on stream, playing well and losing myself in the energy of the stream ๐
Finishing my book!! It...
2020-01-07 09:15:36 +0000 UTC View Post
Journal Entry #2
So, we attempted to go โoff the gridโ this weekend. I think you all can guess how that really went with the tweets ๐ LOL It was a fun time - got to read and relax, go to a wild animal sanctuary and watch silly game shows. I wish I could end it there with only the positive and how Iโm feeling refreshed and renewed to jump back into the grind.
Unfortunately, it kind of exacerbated my burn out feelings. The pressure to relax made it a bit difficult to actually ...
2020-01-05 23:40:44 +0000 UTC View Post
